“For everyone born, a place at the table…”
That’s the first line of a hymn that I love…and that I also struggle with. It’s a wonderful goal–but how do we make it true for everyone?
I realize that I can sing it fairly easily because I have never had to deal with the aftermath of sexual assault or other forms of violence. That’s my privilege. But because I have that privilege, I also have a responsibility to be aware of others who are not as fortunate.
How do we make the table a safe place for someone who was sexually abused–and who often finds themselves sitting with their abuser? Are we prioritizing the comfort of the abuser over that of their victim(s)? What about those who have been victims of violence?
I realize that sometimes situations are not black and white. Not all people on the sexual predator list are dangerous (and please note, I am not ignoring the fact that many are). Some men find themselves on that last because when they were 18 or 19, they had sex with their 15- or 16-year old girlfriend–which could result in a charge of statutory rape. Others may have been involved in a nasty divorce with “he said / she said” issues. Are we comfortable allowing them a place at the table?
Yes, there are situations where those who have been abusers (whatever form that abuse has taken) have changed. But that doesn’t change the impact that their actions had on the individuals they abused.
Far too often, it seems that we expect an abused individual to “be the bigger person”…to forgive and forget. But that doesn’t make the table a safe place for them–and I don’t think that’s what the goal of this hymn is.
I do want to have a table where all are welcome. I don’t want to have to remove anyone. But neither do I want individuals to feel unsafe and unwelcome because of who I might ask them to sit with.
There are so many questions. Do I need more than one table? Do I insist that everyone has the right to sit wherever they want, regardless of their past behaviors? Do I believe that “forgiveness” resolves all issues and the past should be forgotten?
So I sing this hymn…and I struggle.