Sometimes when life is difficult, it’s tempting to ask “Where is God in all this?”
I’ve found it easy to see God in beauty…sunsets…flowers…waterfalls.
But that’s not the answer…not the complete answer. God is in the questions…. That’s what I’ve come to realize.
Yes, God can be –and sometimes is–in the answers. But more often–at least in my experience–I’m finding God in the questions. Questions that I ask…questions that are asked of me.
That makes living life different in some ways from what I expected. I thought God was supposed to be the great comforter…the One who would smooth the rough edges of life out and make it easy.
Often God is the great challenger…the One who forces me to question my assumptions, who calls me out of my comfort zones in order to continue growing into the person God wants me to be–and God and I don’t always have the same dreams / goals!
Sometimes I want to tell God to go away…to leave me alone. And sometimes God obliges–I think to remind me of just how much I miss that constant presence.
I need to be reminded…reminded that while God is in the beauty I see every day, God is also present in the ugliness, as much as I would like to turn my eyes away from it. Sometimes that’s where God calls me to be. Not because I have the answers–I don’t. But because these situations need to begin to know that there is hope…
Hope that life can be better…hope that we can take better care of our world…hope that we can recognize that we are interrelated–humans and all nature.
I think that perhaps John Donne said it best:
No man is an island, entire of itself
every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main
if a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were,
as well as if a manor of thy friends or of thine own were
any man’s death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind
and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls
it tolls for thee.
So where is God? In the best of us…in the worst of us…in the answers…in the questions…wherever we are found, trying to do our best to respond to what we sense as God’s call.