Well, after thinking about it…working through some issues…getting answers to some questions…I sent a letter of interest last Friday about the position I posted about in my last post.
It’s still up through Thursday–and interviews will probably be Friday and/or Monday.
I have no idea how many other people are interested in it–and will go ahead and apply, but that’s okay.
I had reached the point where I am comfortable with whatever direction the decision goes…whether I get the new position or whether someone else gets it and I stay where I am. And I decided that if I was comfortable with that–and could sleep at night–then it was okay to go for it!
It’s been a long road to travel. There’ve been a lot of issues I’ve had to work through over the course of the last few years–and especially this last week! But no one ever said that life was going to be easy…or that decisions would always be clear.
Sometimes I think of the Robert Frost poem:
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
and having perhaps the better claim
because it was grassy and wanted wear;
though as for that, the passing there
had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
in leaves no feet had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I —
I took the one less travelled by,
and that has made all the difference.
I don’t know yet which path I’ll be taking. But what I realized was that if I didn’t apply for the position, then I might always and regret…
So I’m still standing at the fork…and whatever happens, I’ll be stepping out in faith!