A few weeks ago my husband, son, and I shared a Lord of the Rings marathon! He has all three of the extended version DVDs, so we watched one each night.
In The Return of the King, Frodo makes a statement toward the end that really resonated with me because it articulated a question I’ve been pondering for the last couple of months. Frodo has returned home to Bags End after his adventures with the Ring, and he says something to the effect of “How can you come back home and pick up life the way it was when things have changed so much? when there are some hurts that are so deep they will never completely heal?” (Obviously that’s my paraphrase because I can’t recall the exact words.)
When I was much younger, I wanted to go several states away to college and focus on becoming an editor and/or writer. For a number of reasons, that didn’t happen, and I took a different path. Part of that path led–eventually–to an opportunity to do some print editing and writing in a position I took about 10 years ago…but then that position was eliminated, so I took (and created) a new position as a web editor in the same organization. That position has also been eliminated, so I am now functioning as a worship and music specialist. I love dealing with those two aspects of life–but recently the dream of writing has come up again…
And I wonder–how do you reclaim a lost dream?
I don’t think you can…not really. And that’s not necessarily bad. But what I think you can do is to let the dream take new directions. What I’m discovering is that the kind of writing I’m interested in doing now is not the kind of writing I would have done when I was in my 20s, and so trying to reclaim that part of the dream would be a waste of time.
There are a couple of projects I’m working on–personal projects. I don’t know where they’re going to go, but I’m excited about their possibilities.
So the dream is still alive–in a significantly changed form, perhaps. But allowing dreams to adapt to life circumstances…even allowing a portion of the dream to die…is opening new opportunities–and I’m looking forward to seeing what happens.
How do you find a dream again?